To those who are concerned...

I know I don't divulge much about what bothers me it's just hard cause i don't want to sound like a bitch when i tell you about it. and it has something with my trust issue.

But i promise to TRY in the future to answer your questions honestly and as fully as i can.

I need to let go of the past
and look to the future.

i feel angry for reasons i don't even know.
i feel confused about everything going on around me.
i'm starting not to care about myself.
i'm tired all the time.
i find myself lost.
i just want to cry.
i just want to punch things again.


i feel i've lost control of my life.

This is who we are - Cartel

Patience, child it will find you
Your deepest dreams will guide you
The moment that you're born
Oh my, the fear inside will come through
Honey, right behind you
Don't let it get that far

Somehow, breathe a little deeper now
'Cause this is who we are
When we look into their eyes
Don't fly so high
So high, little bird
You'll get your wings clipped
Pick it up, pick it up now you learn

Searching
The moment that defines you
Your deepest dreams remind you
Get out before you're gone
Now that all you hear is what surrounds you
Push it up, get it up from around you
Never stop and you will find it all

Somehow, breathe a little deeper now
'Cause this is who we are
When we look into their eyes
Don't fly so high
So high, little bird
You'll get your wings clipped
Pick it up, pick it up now you learn


So we decided
We decided
We decide this now
To find out how we can
We survive
We can survive
If we learn how to live our lives
If we learn how to live...

Somehow

Breathe a little deeper now
'Cause this is who we are
When we look into their eyes
Don't fly so high
So high, little bird
You'll get your wings clipped
Pick it up, pick it up now you learn
Hey (heeeyeyeah)

"It's been said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is "what might've been". But what if a man is faced with what was, or what may never be, or what could no longer be? Choosing the right path is never easy, it's a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us. But sometimes we find a way to make something better...sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be..and that's when we find our way to something better..or when something better finds its way to us."

resolutions for new quarter

• Actually study this quarter
• Helm's Deep at least 3 times a week
• Skateboard at much as possible!

-Haha at least 1 of the three will be done ;)

Moms

My mom is the best.
She is there to help you when you're down.
She is there to listen to whatever you have to say.
She love me unconditionally.
She makes the best food.
She is there just cuddle with you when you're lonely.
She gives me free kisses and hugs without even asking.
She doesn't rip my ears off when I do something like pierce my ears without her consent.
She gives you money just because.
She calls me just to talk because she misses hearing my voice everyday.

I love my mom <3. :D